On notions of creative control and stability (reflection)

So I'm back to school now, and I'd say kind of the hardest thing to adapt to is sort of a feeling that I don't have control over my time anymore (though nothing has necessarily changed). I think it's mostly that being a student and being in the student mindset has the requirement that you must be "on" all the time, and after a year of taking a break from that, it's hard to get back into. 

At this point my plans are fairly set. I'm recruiting for jobs this quarter, and then come July 2024 I will move to New York. The problem is that day-to-day there's nothing super interesting me; part of that is that I've just transplanted myself back to this alternative environment. But truly, it's not like there's some kind of Netflix show or video game or hobby or something that is being used as my guilty pleasure to kind of balance out the day-to-day living. That might actually be because I cut my Vietnamese lessons down from 6 times a week to 1 time a week, and that was probably the hobby that was keeping me occupied. A great example of kind of the boredom rearing its head is that I woke up at 8am today, slept super well, fully rested, no headaches or funny business, but then I was immediately bored of being student so I scrolled on whatever addictive content Instagram fed me all the way until 1pm. 

So I think this necessarily elevates the role of this blog here, to give me a bit of sense of control and creativity while I go about my day-to-day, never day-off student life. Since writing a blog doesn't take up much time and it it's something where I am "progressing" or "making" in a sense.